":)"

I used to type that a lot. like a lot. to hide my sadness, of course. people nowadays are more to ":')" but i don't like that. that smiley is like telling people that u're not okay but u pretend to be okay. isnt it obvious? i mean if u are really strong, u dont need people to come to u and ask, "are u okay?" "what's going on?" but if u're not, u may go on with that smiley. i just wanna say that it bothers me. why dont u just go straight and tell people that u're not okay and talk, instead of wanting them to ask. u know, people doesnt always care for u. so, that mindset could just lead u to a huge disappointment when they dont ask.

for me, everytime i've a problem, i just keep it to myself. sometimes i share it to someone i trust. and when my other close friends do ask, sometimes i'll go with "entahlah" or just tell them the whole story. there are things that u can share with just anyone, and things that shall be kept private. and do know, everytime i promised u i won't tell anyone about yyr secret, i mean it. i've been keeping big things these days, haih of course it is a burden. i wish people didn't tell me those things. heh, i do avoid it okay.

i even tell them that i don't want to know. but they just keep wanting to tell me. i've no other choice... i'll not let any of it slip out of my mouth, InsyaAllah.

we'll get through this, okay? He wont test u with something that u're not capable of. so don't worry, and don't stop praying. He knows the best.

:)

now, thats a sincere smile.

(Feb) RizawatyJ